Chelsea's forgotten man Marco van Ginkel has revealed how his injury nightmare plunged him into depression.
The Dutch international, an £8million Blues buy in 2013, said he feared his career was over after THREE operations in SIX days.
Midfielder Van Ginkel is back at Stamford Bridge following loans to AC Milan, Stoke and PSV Eindhoven.
The 27-year-old last played in May 2018, captaining PSV to a second title in three years.
He had surgery to rebuild a knee ligament that summer, but a string of complications has delayed his comeback until next month.
Van Ginkel is out of contract next summer, but hopes Chelsea take up their option to extend his stay until 2022.
The former Vitesse Arnhem ace has made just four senior Blues appearances, the last under Jose Mourinho in 2013.
He told NOS: "I played my final PSV games with knee pain. It got worse and worse, as our bodies aren't built to work without cruciates.
"Everything went well at first after I had surgery, but ill fate struck once more after three weeks.
"I was told I had a very serious and aggressive infection. I became ill, and my knee swelled up.
"The doctors didn't know what the matter was for two weeks. It turned out my new cruciate was damaged.
"I became depressed at that point, when I learnt that everything had to be taken out once more.
"I needed another operation, but didn't know when. My knee had to be cleaned out to remove the infection.
"So I underwent surgery three times in six days. You could say that was quite an event!
"Infections like that can end a player's entire career.
"In the end I recovered well from the clean-out, but then I had to wait five months before I could do anything football-wise.
"The months dragged on. I have come through a sombre spell.
"I am a positive person, and the people at Chelsea have always supported me.
"Quitting is not a word in my dictionary - but I have had plenty of annoying days behind me.
"I still feel like a Chelsea player. I'm at the club every day among the other players, and I know all the doctors and physios.
"You'll have to ask Frank Lampard if he sees me as an option for the future.
"But Chelsea have an option to extend my contract by two more seasons. Let's wait and see.
"My initial focus is on getting fit once more, and then we will look further ahead."
Wunbcdilnz
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a quick recovery and Good
mahirzein
3
i know for him very well when he was leon spels he is a playmaker and attacking mid wellrecovert boy 👏👏
nodekntyz
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Get well soon man! U r a strong man. I pray NP more serious injury for u again.
Tacacepu
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the solution Chelsea need in the attacking midfield if he regain fitness. Get well boy
veyabmotuz
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you will get through this always remain positive no matter what happens
ejleo
2
I feel so sorry for him... Wish you speedy recovery.
Latcdopu
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wish you a speedy recovery, we love you van
C_for_Chelsea
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Poor kid, he had a bright future ahead of him...
ShubhamGhosh39
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CFC , don't sell him
sikcdikls
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we need the guy
Vombdeikt
1
welcome back to chelsea
Woebdempz
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he never played many games for Chelsea but won two tittles with p.s.v while on loan.what a player wish you quick recovery.
Revy19
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Van We love you and we want you back . More grace and speedy recovery
saueklmrty
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Good luck
Duabcikmo
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Good luck my guy.
hobcdnoy
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Goodluck bro hope you get the chance you deserve
Sawbcks
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Could be the 2nd kevin de bruyne. Please chelsea dont lose him.
no he is 27 years old he plays not that good and he is not a cam
dusmnoprs
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Goodluck blue soldier
fooklopruy
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good luck Van Ginkel
dipcekmpr
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retair him & give him a job at the academy.
AlhajiPvgez
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is he a good player
yes you can go and watch his video on YouTube...
boeacisz
6
fantastic player give him tym don't let him go anywhere
lozciprt
3
is he a good player
kokbepsu
5
good luck young man
Emmanuel204
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Turkeys
3
Time for van ginkel to rise up and be the next Victor Moses, decent talent and he's better than baka
opposite
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Could be the 2nd kevin de bruyne. Please chelsea dont lose him.
sadistic
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He is a very classy talent. We need to be patient with him. He was the player of the season at psv
uptownl
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Considering all the fitness issues within the first team, why not give him a go?
FCBxavi
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I’d love it if he got fit and actually went into rotation.
CdKeyb
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A fit Van Ginkel challenges in this midfield he creates, drives, passes well and scores from midfield. He has presence.
armah Reuben
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The guy is excellent a kevin debryne type of player.Hope to see you soon
Cocbcklsy
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come replace mount
hawkzoc
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Give this boy a chance once he fully recover.. Really hope to see him on Blue shirt!