Steven Caulker has opened up about his gambling and drinking problems while on loan at Liverpool under Jurgen Klopp that led him to enter rehab.
The defender, who was contracted to Queens Park Rangers at the time, had his loan deal cut short at Southampton during the 2015/16 season in January and set off for Anfield as an emergency-loan for the Reds.
Caulker made just three appearances for Liverpool and spent the remainder of the season playing in the Under-23 squad.
The defender has revealed that he was feeling 'really low' during his time in the North East and turned to gambling and alcohol 'to numb the pain' before eventually deciding to enter rehab.
He told FourFourTwo: 'I was really low. The cycle of gambling, drinking and self-loathing was supposed to numb the pain, but it only made things worse.
'At the time, I thought I was at rock bottom. I was wrong.
'After a couple of months, I knocked on Jurgen Klopp's door and said, 'I don't feel like I'm good enough – what do I need to do to improve?'
'He gave me some suggestions for the gym, but I was mostly playing for the under-23s and that rejection was difficult to handle.
'In a dark place, I didn't feel like I could train and fulfil my duties – so I decided it was time for rehab.
'That was extremely hard, because I'd been given such a massive opportunity at Liverpool.'
The centre-back returned to action as he signed a one-and-a-half year deal with Dundee in the Scottish Premiership.
Caulker had two seasons in Scotland before moving abroad to Turkey, where he now plays for Alanyaspor in the Super Lig and is a first-team regular.
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